Actually, I don’t really care about birthdays. But today, I’m turning 30. Yes, ThIRtY, you didn’t hear it wrong. Halfway to sixty. :D
I am also surprised that it’s coming now. I think I just started my conscious mind when I was sent to kindergarten 25 years ago and knew my real name. Lol (I had been called with my nickname anyway.)
Yeah, I remember when I traveled to India, I wanted to watch a movie. It was an 18+ genre movie actually. But they asked me to show my ID to prove to them that I was adult enough. Lol
How could my face not even pass 18? I told them that I was already 28. Had a debate for a while. It was just useless. They still insisted me to show my ID. That was so damn annoying. I should grab my passport that I put in many layers in my bag in order hardly to be stolen (again). Finally, they let me buy the ticket after checking my ID really carefully. :D
Alright, I am 30 now. How am I feeling? Am I feeling old? Not RRReally (must be written with triple R). I still feel very YouNG anyway. Even I still whine to my mom if I want something. Lol (Hope it’s not just denial of getting old.)
Of course, being 30 is so special because I left my 20ies life where I had mostly the first things in my life. I call that decade as a silly experiment of my life. Yes, mostly silly, dumb, stupid, and only smart a little bit. Quite often I said, “Seriously Intan, why did you do that?” Lol
I am wondering what I have been doing on this earth for 30 years? 30 is a lot. I couldn’t imagine how many kgs of rice that I have eaten until now. :D
When I was a kid, I was thinking, “If I were 30, I would have looked like an ''aunty”.'' And now I am 30, but I still feel like a kid. (By the way, that's true. I am literally an aunty now.)
Lastly, in this 30, I feel grateful for what I have done until now, either it was sad or happy. Age is a number. And changing is a must. But I am always ready for whatever roles that I have to play in my life.
I just hope that I never deny my feelings. Yay ;)
Ubud, 16th of June 2021.
PS:
I don’t accept greetings without any gifts. Lol
